Feeling confused and Down?

Hey, I am feeling a Little confused at the moment. I am 16 y/o male. I feel that I am ually confused. For a while I thought I was Gay, I mean, I men ually arouse me, but I dont want to be with men for my life, I want to be with women, But not ually by them. I want to be with a girl and have a family. Its confusing for me. I also feel a bit depressed and down, last year my friend, who I really wanted to be with, moved and I cannot contact him, noone can. Its really saddening. Both these things have been on my chest for a while, but I cannot talk to my friends about it, because I dont know how they'd react if I was to tell them. I told my mom, but I dont think she gets it. If anyone could help me, I would be most happy.